Ramblings of the Certifiably Insane

Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in Devil Miyu's LiveJournal:

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Thursday, December 31st, 2009
4:44 am	Good-bye 2009 I've got a few minutes left before I have to be at work. Yes, I'm aware of the time. Yes it's cold outside and there's a lot of snow on the ground since it's been snowing non-stop yesterday and the night before. I just want to say to all my lj-friends out there... and to those of you who stuck by my side regardless of whatever's going on in my life... thanks for everything. I wish you all a very happy new year. Something about tonight scares me. So as soon as I return home from work, I think I'll go back to bed and rest up. I'll leave the celebration up to my family--my wonderful husband and my amazing child. And to my dearest friends. This is my last post for this year. And the last of its kind. (yes, I'm well aware of my last few posts being set to "public" viewing as well as this one's security setting, it'll be changed soon enough...maybe) EDIT: previous public posts with the exception of 4, have been set to friends only as per normal default settings of this journal So, good bye 2009. Good bye, everyone. See you next year......? (hopefully) Current Mood: Cold and tired Current Music: AC/DC - Thunderstruck (trying to motivate myself through music) ~*4 Slashes §CUT ME and WATCH ME BLEED*~
Wednesday, December 30th, 2009
11:11 pm	Once in a blue moon.... With the blue moon rising tomorrow night, along with a lunar eclipse and the New Year ushering in, got any last words to say about 2009? Was it a good year for you? Are there moments that stand out over the rest? Are there moments that you'd rather forget? And what about a new year's resolution? What is your new year's resolution? How about New Year's Superstitions? Do you have any? How do you celebrate the coming of the new year? Who will be the 1st person you'd say "Happy New Year" to? .... I ask because I'm curious. Something about tomorrow night doesn't seem right to me. Matter of fact, I have this anxiety that I can't rid myself off. Is it because of the eclipse and the blue moon or is it because another year is ending and I feel that I don't have much to show for. I don't feel like I got a lot things done. So... yeah, I ask these things because they're some of the many questions that's floating in my head at the moment. ~*2 Slashes §CUT ME and WATCH ME BLEED*~
Thursday, December 24th, 2009
5:42 pm	Voice Post VoicePost 92K 0:29 (no transcription available) ~*1 Slash §CUT ME and WATCH ME BLEED*~
Saturday, December 5th, 2009
8:38 pm	I am home now--from work. I cannot feel my face or my fingertips and there's a winter advisory in affect until tomorrow morning at 11am. Driving to work today with the heavy snow coming down was hell in itself. Trying to pry open a car door that's been iced over is hell in itself as well. To make matters worse, my ice-scraper is in the other car and I didn't bring a coat. Yeah, I call idiocy on that one but I rushed out of my place this morning to get to work on time, it was too late for me to go back in to grab a coat and gloves. I thought it'd stop snowing around 10am or 11am, instead it snowed most of the day. Oh well, I'm home now and it's all done and over with. A warm shower, a hot meal and a comfy bed to stretch out and sleep in is in order. And then.... it's back to work again in a few hours. I'm looking forward to getting a fat paycheck in a few days because of all these hours I'm working. ~*4 Slashes §CUT ME and WATCH ME BLEED*~
Tuesday, November 24th, 2009
3:33 pm	It seems that my tweetdeck decided to go spastic on me. I'm not able to login to both twitter and facebook. Not that I have a need to do so at the moment--login that is. It's just so much easier to inform people about a change of plans instead of calling them or text messaging them. Things like that (voicemail & texts) are far too easy to ignore. Whatever happened to the good old days of sticking to plans and being able to pick up a phone and actually talk to a live person to discuss changes in plans and alternatives to accomodate everyone? Or just have a sit-down and start sorting it out in person? Heaven forbid the GPS's batteries die (or worse! the car charger gets misplaced) and we'd have to pull out actual maps--printed on paper! Wrinkled and covered with coffee stains and ketchup from the hundreds of miles (and years) it has endured being in the family car. Heh. ~*2 Slashes §CUT ME and WATCH ME BLEED*~
Thursday, November 12th, 2009
9:35 pm	Tonight's episode of FRINGE was fantastic. The glyphs in this episode spelled out "ARRIVE". I love decoding these things! ~*CUT ME and WATCH ME BLEED*~
Wednesday, November 11th, 2009
11:11 am	Hm..... I just wanted to post at this exact time of 11:11 on 11/11 of this year. Did the portal open up yet to take me away? Heee hee! ~*4 Slashes §CUT ME and WATCH ME BLEED*~
Friday, April 10th, 2009
1:25 pm	Mourning ..... ... THE DEATH OF COMMON SENSE ... On Wed, 31/12/08, NOEL EVERINGHAM wrote: AN OBITUARY PRINTED IN THE LONDON TIMES. Interesting and sadly true.      "Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, 'Common Sense', who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape. He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as:      Knowing when to come in out of the rain; why the early bird gets the worm; Life isn't always fair; and maybe it was my fault.      Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you can earn) and reliable strategies (adults, not children, are in charge).      His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouth wash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition.      Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they themselves had failed to do in disciplining their unruly children.      It declined even further when schools were required to get parental consent to administer sun lotion or an Aspirin to a student; but could not inform parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.      Common Sense lost the will to live as the churches became businesses; and criminals received better treatment than their victims. Common Sense took a beating when you couldn't defend yourself from a burglar in your own home and the burglar could sue you for assault.      Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to realise that a steaming cup of coffee was hot. She spilled a little in her lap, and was promptly awarded a huge settlement ..      Common Sense was preceded in death, by his parents, Truth and Trust. His wife, Discretion, his daughter, Responsibility, his son, Reason.      He is survived by his 4 stepbrothers; I Know My Rights; I Want It Now; Someone Else Is To Blame; I'm A Victim.      Not many attended his funeral because so few realised he was gone. If you still remember him, pass this on. If not, join the majority and do nothing." I'd like to thank my good friend xdeaths_embrace for sharing this with me. I wanted to use a "sad" icon for this one but I realised that I had forgotten to make one. So hm, thanks for the reminder. ~*6 Slashes §CUT ME and WATCH ME BLEED*~
Friday, October 10th, 2008
8:11 pm	People are weird and people suck! Last night, I saw this bit on the news. Watch it, go on. Then tell me what you think. Here's how I see it... The guy was so obsessed with her that he threatened to kill her relatives. I don't understand that. Basically saying, "I love you, I have to have you and I will kill everyone close to you, everyone that means anything to you, because I love you so much and I want you to know that." This guy is sick! And she's a minor too. Over the years I've come across a lot of strange people over the internet. I often wondered why they are the way they are and what makes them think that what they're doing is okay. I mean, that's just downright wrong. Also, I can't imagine why people would put up with that kind of crap. This sort of thing just reminds me of the sort of people I've dealt with. Which is probably why I only talk to those I trust. And even at that...there aren't too many people I trust 100%. I hope the family's okay. I'm sorry their cat died and that they're still going through a lot of grief over this. I hope that the guy who did this would realise one day what he did was wrong. I doubt it though. Why? Because people are weird and people suck! Well, not all of them, but sheesh, there sure is a lot of those out there lately. Thank you, bedroom, for hiding me and keeping me away from such horrid people! ~*1 Slash §CUT ME and WATCH ME BLEED*~
Tuesday, September 9th, 2008
1:39 am	Read. Acknowledge. Understand.....Learn. (A rare public post from me.) Hello, my name is Anna. A lot of people out there (friends and family) know me as Miyu. I work for the Department of Defense up at Hill Air Force Base. I deal with a lot of people in my line of work. It's a very stressful but fun job because in my line of work, I get to meet a lot of people from different parts of the world. I have my reasons for posting this. Mainly it's because as a reminder from work, September is Suicide Awareness and Prevention Month. Suicide is a very touchy subject for me for personal reasons. I've also lost a few friends of mine to suicide. I'd like to share this with you folks out there because, some how, some way, this might help someone out there. Perhaps through awareness, a life out there can be saved from being yet another suicide statistic. So please, read this. Acknowledge it in your own way. Try to understand it. And perhaps, learn from it. You just never know. Maybe someone you know, someone close to you is contemplating ending their life this very moment. Perhaps, before going on with this rest of this post, you might want to read my public post about Depression. There is no typical suicide victim. It happens to young and old, rich and poor. To quote William Styron, "To most of those who have experienced it, the horror of depression is so overwhelming as to be quite beyond expression...if depression had no termination, then suicide would, indeed, be the only remedy. But...depression is not the soul's annihilation; men and women who have recovered from the disease-and they are countless-bear witness to what is probably its only saving grace: it is conquerable." There are so many myths and misconceptions of suicide. Often, it is the lack of understanding, that fails to save lives in the end. Gathering bits and pieces from various places, I've put this together, so that you would know.... A person *might* be suicidal if he or she: • Talks about committing suicide • Has trouble eating or sleeping • Experiences drastic changes in behavior • Withdraws from friends and/or social activities • Loses interest in hobbies, work, school, etc. • Prepares for death by making out a will and final arrangements • Gives away prized possessions • Has attempted suicide before • Takes unnecessary risks • Has had recent severe losses • Is preoccupied with death and dying • Loses interest in their personal appearance • Increases their use of alcohol or drugs - or in some cases, decrease the use of, or cease the use of, drugs that are prescribed to them (for treatment of various illnesses) that *could* save their lives. Here are some ways to be helpful to someone who is contemplating suicide: • Be direct. Talk openly and matter-of-factly about suicide. • Be willing to listen. Allow expressions of feelings. Accept the feelings. • Be non-judgmental. Don’t debate whether suicide is right or wrong, or feelings are good or bad. Don’t lecture on the value of life. • Get involved. Become available. Show interest and support. • Don’t dare him or her to do it. • Don’t act shocked. This will put distance between you. • Don’t be sworn to secrecy. Seek support. • Offer hope that alternatives are available but do not offer glib reassurance. • Take action. Remove means, such as guns or stockpiled pills. • Get help from people or agencies specializing in crisis intervention and suicide prevention. Be aware of feelings! Do not dismiss them or impune them. Many people at some time in their lives think about committing suicide. Most decide to live, because they eventually come to realize that the crisis is temporary and death is permanent. On other hand, people having a crisis sometimes perceive their dilemma as inescapable and feel an utter loss of control. These are some of the feelings and things they experience: - Can’t stop the pain - Can’t think clearly - Can’t make decisions - Can’t see any way out - Can’t sleep, eat or work - Can’t get out of depression - Can’t make the sadness go away - Can’t see a future without pain - Can’t see themselves as worthwhile - Can’t get someone’s attention - Can’t seem to get control If someone you know exhibits these symptoms, offer help! ( The rest of it is hidden behind here. ) ~*3 Slashes §CUT ME and WATCH ME BLEED*~